11 November 2009

Emotional Wreck

That's me. Ever since I was offered the job in Wisconsin, my emotions have been all over the place. I am driving my husband, my child, but mostly myself absolutely nuts! Very uncharacteristic of me. Perhaps the past years of bad luck and financial woes are finally catching up with me, now that they're about to end.

I want to be happy and joyful about being offered this job but I just worry too much. It keeps me up at night. I am afraid I will not be granted a gaming license, a necessity for working in a casino. It also makes me sad to walk away from so much potential, the property we put our hearts, souls, and savings into. Not to mention there is so much to do before we move. And almost no time to do it.

But we're finally taking a step forward. A small step maybe, but in the right direction. And I am truly appreciative of the opportunity we have been given here. I am very much looking forward to living in Wisconsin.









I just need to have faith that this is where we are meant to be right now, and hand my worries over. The universe will take care of the rest.

Including the FCP Gaming Commission. Hmmm...

7 comments:

Anonymous said...

You really should be easy on your husband.

Joan said...

have you decided yet whether to take the job? what does your huband want you to do?

The Dutch Girl said...

Oh yes, I am definitely taking this job! All evidence to that contrary, Ryan and I still believe it is easier for him to find a job than for me. We decided if I was offered a job, no matter where in the US, we would accept it and move. So that's what we're doing. We both fully support this decision, I am just a little emotional about it. Well, maybe a lot...

IJme said...

How about those practicalities, Hanneke? Are you able to leave WA together or will Ryan and Lola join you later? Do they offer you housing somewhere in the woods;)? Is there a market to sell your present house to? Lots of questions I didn't want to bother you with... but now you voice your own questions, and I had some left to throw in myself ... ;)

Sheila said...

Wisconsin is waiting for you three with open arms!

Ester said...

congrats with the job hanneke. all new steps are difficult (i know all about it), but what's life without adventure? and who knows what lies behind the new door that you open? trust in yourself and you'll be fine! good luck!

Belinda said...

Each day is a new chance to do your best. Just trust in your self and go for what you want in life. Life goes by why to fast for you to sit and wonder. Just get going and Good Luck!

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